Ich Gehör Nur Mir

My heart aches and a drowsy numbness pains my sense

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It’s not as simple as waking up one day and just being better. You need to get out of that mindset. There is nothing magical here, and there never will be. The only way you’re going to recover is if you do it. You have to do it. You have to make a conscious decision to stop your behaviors. I don’t care if you are at an 11/10 on your emotional distress scale. It is still possible to stop a behavior.
And you can’t just sit around, using your eating disorder and letting it abuse you, and then go to treatment and think you’ll get better. No.
You have to put the fucking work in. You can’t just sit on your ass and expect something to happen when you’re not making any effort to try and get it.
This isn’t rude or shallow, and you are wrong if you think there is no experience in these words. Because there was a time when I went in and out of treatment and I just assumed that I could keep fucking up and one day I’d wake up and just be better. There is a train full of experiences here.
And here’s the part that you won’t like: if you are sitting around in or out of treatment, and you aren’t really helping yourself, I don’t really have any sympathy for you. You don’t wanna put any effort into this? That’s fine, this is your life, not mine. But don’t come to me asking, “when do the urges stop?” Because they are never going to stop if you keep using the behaviors.
I understand the struggle though.
If you are really honestly trying to recover, good for you. You fucking go. Keep it up and I know you will get there.

But there is no magic here.
So get the hell out of your eating disorder now before it takes you closer and closer to your death. It’s coming. Because an eating disorder is a death sentence. And you know what else is a death sentence? Pretending you want to recover when you aren’t doing anything to get there. So have fun, this is your life, you can do whatever you want.
Just he aware that you will not get there if you don’t fight. You have to fight. There is magic here, though. It is inside of you and it has been there all along.

You Will Find No Sympathy in these Eyes Until You Open Your Own // Hannah Bartos (via f-ightingback)

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artemisfowlstolemysoul:

Being a nice person is so fun

Waiter messes something up? You can see the relief on their faces when you don’t scream and swear at them about it

Extra tickets at an arcade/prize place? Watch a little kid’s face light up when you give them a bunch of tickets

There are too many assholes in this world. Be a nice person.

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armellin:

liketherifle:

the boys took the time to go to the edge of the stage during their panel to meet a girl who had a retinal handicap which causes her to only be able to see if someone or something is up close. She can only see the boys if the picture is right in front of her face and her sister asked if the boys would come closer so she could meet them. #nashcon

AMAZING!

armellin:

liketherifle:

the boys took the time to go to the edge of the stage during their panel to meet a girl who had a retinal handicap which causes her to only be able to see if someone or something is up close. She can only see the boys if the picture is right in front of her face and her sister asked if the boys would come closer so she could meet them. #nashcon

AMAZING!

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stansusedbloggingemporium:

When I was just starting high school, a girl who rode my bus invited me to stay the night at her house and when I did she got really emotional and told me no girls ever stayed over because she was a lesbian and if you don’t think that’s the saddest thing ever you need to re-evaluate your life

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